It's been a month since I've picked up my pen and drew something, and two months since it's been anything productive. Other than that it's been failures left and right. I couldn't seem to pinpoint the reason behind my lack of motivation, but I think it finally hit me today.

I'm unhappy with my artwork because it's become a chore. I no longer enjoy it because it feels like work.

I can't do commissions, requests, art trades, or anything because the same thing happens to me in art as it does in any subject; I overthink it. I worry that it's not good enough. I try to be a perfectionist, and in the end I drop the project altogether and fail. That's how I failed my classes, and that's how I'm failing now.

I've only realized now that art can't be a career for me because I'll simply stop doing it when it becomes work. But that's one step in the right direction, because at least I know now what I don't want to do.

Edit: I WILL still continue to draw, but it's only after I get my personal life sorted out. The point of this entry was my realization that this isn't a career path for me.