ShopDreamUp AI ArtDreamUp
Deviation Actions
It's been a month since I've picked up my pen and drew something, and two months since it's been anything productive. Other than that it's been failures left and right. I couldn't seem to pinpoint the reason behind my lack of motivation, but I think it finally hit me today.
I'm unhappy with my artwork because it's become a chore. I no longer enjoy it because it feels like work.
I can't do commissions, requests, art trades, or anything because the same thing happens to me in art as it does in any subject; I overthink it. I worry that it's not good enough. I try to be a perfectionist, and in the end I drop the project altogether and fail. That's how I failed my classes, and that's how I'm failing now.
I've only realized now that art can't be a career for me because I'll simply stop doing it when it becomes work. But that's one step in the right direction, because at least I know now what I don't want to do.
Edit: I WILL still continue to draw, but it's only after I get my personal life sorted out. The point of this entry was my realization that this isn't a career path for me.
I'm unhappy with my artwork because it's become a chore. I no longer enjoy it because it feels like work.
I can't do commissions, requests, art trades, or anything because the same thing happens to me in art as it does in any subject; I overthink it. I worry that it's not good enough. I try to be a perfectionist, and in the end I drop the project altogether and fail. That's how I failed my classes, and that's how I'm failing now.
I've only realized now that art can't be a career for me because I'll simply stop doing it when it becomes work. But that's one step in the right direction, because at least I know now what I don't want to do.
Edit: I WILL still continue to draw, but it's only after I get my personal life sorted out. The point of this entry was my realization that this isn't a career path for me.
I'm Not Dead
Just reassuring everyone that I'm still here. Life's been moving slowly for me, and it's probably going to remain this way until I get a job.
Sorry to those I've inconvenienced because I can't seem to draw anything. The last few times I've tried it just didn't turn out the way I wanted to.
Vacation Soon
Just want you guys to know that I will be leaving for Florida from the 28th of February to the 8th or March for a winter vacation. I'm not sure if I will have internet access there, but I probably won't have time for the internet anyway. (Which doesn't matter to you guys since I rarely upload art to dA.)
I got sick a few days ago, so hopefully that will be all cleared up by the time I'm down there. Once I'm healthy again I am starting a diet, which will also detract from drawing. Not to worry though, I plan to be much more productive in these next coming months with my art and all other things in my life right now. I let myself get slowed do
Art Trade in Progress
Haha, so. About that art trade with Ryzakier (https://www.deviantart.com/ryzakier). I missed a whole day to draw because of a migraine. I got halfway and then threw the entire thing out. ^^;
I'll just stay up as late as possible tonight and get what I can done. I'll be busy tomorrow, but I'll see what I can do ASAP. I wish I could warm up to drawing quicklythe ability to speed paint would be nice, too bad I'm a nitpicking perfectionist but I really have to quit complaining and just do it if I wanna get it done. :|
YOU SEE WHAT I DO FOR YOU GUYS. YOU'RE KILLING ME.
Or you're helping me be less lazy. Either works.
I procrastinate and make excuses for you guys. :heart
Today's my birthday and stuff.
I have the overwhelming urge to eat beets.
Birthday beets.
:boing:
Toulouse's birthday is almost the same as mine. D8 So close.
© 2013 - 2024 maormer
Comments3
Join the community to add your comment. Already a deviant? Log In
thats a shame, i liked your artwork. but it's your choice. i hope you find something else that you'll enjoy 100%.